Seeing Inside
January 29, 2010
I’m often asked how I came to be called a “spiritual intuitive”. My journey of growing my intuition has been years-long and meandering. Like a river passing through many lands, cultures and eras I have been blessed to share place and time with incredible mentors, leaders, healers, shamans, kahunas, elders and children. That said, one event in particular created a significant change in course.
You may notice that I recommend Brooks Greene-Barton and the Art of God program he teaches in North America and Europe. It was in my second year of the three year program that I had an especially transformative moment. The Art of God intensives are generally 4 days long and involve deep meditation that often leads to strong physical, emotional and energetic reconstruction. It was on the fourth day of one such four day intensive that my eyes changed and my clairaudience, clairvoyance and claircognizance opened fully.
Sitting in meditation led by Brooks, in a circle of about 15 people, we said the phrase, “What I Am as my body”. As usual, I felt my energy flow through me and activate all of my cells – “the surge”, as Hank Wesselman calls it. After 15 minutes or so I gently opened my eyes and slowly turned my head to the left. I looked at the woman sitting next to me, and my eyes began to tear up and flow. I was astonished at her beauty. While I had known her for a few years and was familiar with her external beauty, it was a few moments before I realized that the extraordinary beauty I was seeing included what was happening inside her! I could see into her body!
Small, bright, revolving balls of light, like little suns, were glowing inside her in alignment from her root to her crown. My mind reminded that these must be energy centers. Of course, like most people I had seen illustrations of the energy centers of the body, but I never imagined that I would actually see them. Each center was working independently of the other, each spinning though some faster than others. In my friend, all of her centers were vibrant and active. I watched as the flow of energy between her heart and solar plexus increased. Those centers grew brighter and brighter as she opened in her meditation. I had the thought, “I MUST remember this! What a gift! I may never get this opportunity again!” Quickly, I let that thought go and simply felt gratitude in my heart. The tears of joy continued to flow.
Now moving my gaze past my friend to the person sitting next to her, and next to him, and so on around the circle I realized that I could see inside everyone! Such joy I can hardly express! Again, I felt such gratitude and my mind thought, “Wow! Remember this! It may not come again!”. As quickly, I let go of that thought and simply felt profound gratitude in my heart and throughout my body. I closed my eyes as the tears continued to stream down my smiling face. When I opened them again, my vision had returned to what I used to call “normal”. In gratitude I thought, “What a gift! I am so grateful for this opportunity. If that is the only time I get to experience this, it is enough.”
My next thought was, “what if I could have that experience again?” I opened my eyes and again, the vibrant internal beauty of my fellow artists of God had returned. Again, I looked to the woman on my left and now as I saw her I heard in my mind that she was clearing trauma from her parents, specifically her mother, in relationship to what it meant to be born with a female body. She was graduating from that trauma and coming more fully into her own authority beyond the programming of gender she had inherited from her mom. I watched as her energy centers glowed brilliantly from her root to her heart and then the energy rose through to her crown and beyond. After the meditation, when we all had a chance to share of our experiences, she spoke of the healing she had just experienced with her mom – exactly what I had “heard”.
It was a year before I could publicly acknowledge what had happened. When I told Brooks he smiled and said, “You finally let go of needing your eyes to see the way you had been told they worked. Congratulations!” The gift has not gone away. Occasionally, the ability leaves me when I get into my ego or my mind, though that happens less now. When I experience a limitation to my perceptions I know it’s probably where I’ve stepped out of humility or grace, or have found another place to grow. I am joyfully blessed with the ability to see, hear, and have clear awareness of what is happening inside the experience of my fellow human beings, animals, trees, rocks, mountains. I’ve learned that I can do this without being in the same place as my client, and I now mostly work “remotely”. There seems to be no limit to what can be felt and sensed when I’m willing. If I can do this, anyone can. In fact, I am confident that what I am experiencing is an aspect of a larger natural wave of conscious human evolution.
Before my eyes changed I had been providing coaching and consulting. Now I offer a clearer mirror to those who seek assistance in being more of who they are. I am grateful beyond words.
